Tue, Oct 13, 2009
It has taken me awhile to decide where I am going to go with the story from here. This may be more of a post for us gals but men, you may benefit. I am sure you know at least one woman in your life that can’t let go of the past or an event that has defined her level of self-confidence or complete lack of it. We all think our butts are big, we all think you can’t possibly love us the way we love you and we all can’t freaking let it go. This is the last post in this series…finally, I know.
So, why cant we just drop it like it’s hot, give it up and move on? Unfortunately, you won’t find the answer here but I do have some thoughts on the matter. I am not going to hang Eve out to dry on this one either. Yep, the fall of man is certainly due to Adam and Eve’s sin. Yes, women were cursed with a few issues due to it. I guess I am tired of raising that sail as my go to excuse. We can certainly blame the Enemy. He does put ugly and hurtful ideas and notions in our heads and his main goal is to destroy us-sure the Enemy adds to our weakness.
Maybe some of the blame should fall square on our shoulders. In my case, it may be due to my lack of faith and trust in God or my inability to rest in his promises. To understand that yes, Eve fell, and as a woman I was cursed. The Enemy is trying to kill my spirit but I don’t have live a life wallowing in the misery of that failure. God has redeemed me. Christ has taken on all my sin and Psalm 139 says it all. Verse 1: “Oh Lord, you have searched me and know me”. Verse 13: ”For you formed my inward parts, you covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made” and Verse 17: How precious also are your thoughts to me, Oh God! How great is the sum of them!”
I had one teacher call me a name, a mentor hurt my feelings and a boyfriend (or two) treat me badly. So what. I’ve had many, many amazing teachers, professors and coaches that inspired, supported and encouraged me. I have an amazing husband that loves me unconditionally, treats me like a Queen and has never stopped trying to show me how special and important I am to him and our family. Why hang my whole human existence on one pent up nun, a mentor having a bad day or a jackass of a boyfriend?
In the words of Dana Carvey as George Bush: ”Not gonna do it”. I’m ready to move on.
The Finale is last in this series. Thanks for letting me share. To catch up and read the whole series click on the links below.